At this point I find myself able to turn and compassionately acknowledge that something deeply hurts about my Projector type’s dependency on others for energy. The magic seems to be in finally seeing the wound, from that I find the wound is healing. Intellectually I know it is a misunderstanding, yet the journey seems to involve being present to my child self’s mistaken thinking. I had plenty of parental love but not a specific message that the gift of being a Projector involves the ability to understand energy instead of having consistent access to it. Also that there is a trade-off where we will always be given energy for the value of what we see about energy.This is tricky to talk about, because in the everyday use of the word ‘energy’ of course I have it, I’d be dead otherwise. The Mechanics involved in type differentiation, is speaking a different language and using the word in the very specific context of how evolution has brought us an underlying organizing principle around the four types of designs.It is a revelation to me to find that parenting myself to be present to this mistaken sense of brokenness can be so liberating. (I happen to be a projector with no defined energy centers, there are ‘energy’ projectors, however we all share the type mechanic that we can actualize and co-habit with the other types through an exchange of guidance in return for being given actualizing energy - money, appreciation, attention, recognition).I do sense a clear unburdening of my spirit going on the more I settle into being who I’m designed to be.